I am hurting.
Worse than I can ever remember hurting in my life.
I am hurting the people I care about the most.
I don't know why.
I used to be so strong.
But I'm tired.
I don't want to be alone anymore.
I don't want to hurt anyone I care about anymore.
I don't want my heart to hurt anymore.
I want my life back. Before him.
I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. Its not easy, at all. I wish there was a magic recipe I could give you to get through it but it really just takes time. Talking it through, writing and getting back to living. Living for you, and in your case, your children is what will get you going each day. No matter what you have to realize it was him, not you that caused it. You aren't pathetic. You are a person who loved and trusted someone, unfortunately they let you down. It takes a long time to get past it. I still have bad days. But I know there has to be a reason this has happened.
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