It's been over 3 months since he left.
I thought I would be better.
I thought I would pull it all together by now.
But, instead, I sit and watch as my life falls apart, piece by piece.....
I have books I was so excited to read....
i dont read them
I have a blog I was so excited to write in......
i dont blog
I have new recipes I couldn't wait to try.....
i dont even cook
I was saving money for things I was excited to buy.....
i have no money now
My son hates me.
My daughter is lost without me.
My family is clueless as to what I'm going thru.
I'm losing or on the verge of losing the things I worked so hard for.
I am sad......lonely.........and tired.
I have learned that the only thing worse than being lonely, is being lonely while you watch your husband and his new girlfriend, together, happy, at my job..........
I just want my life back.
I want to read.
I want to blog.
I want to cook.
I want to spend time with my kids. Happy times.
I want my tears to stop and to just be able to breath......
I want to stop struggling. And starting over.
I want the darkness to go away and the sun to come back out.
it will come out again. promise. i'm glad you're blogging again...let it all out. luv u.
ReplyDeletein this blog world you are allowed to cuss...let's start with these.
ReplyDeletefucking asshole. piece of shit. homewrecking whore. selfish bastard. worthless dick. manipulative. deceiving. overbearing. loud. worthless piece of fucking shit.
I'm here for you girl. you let me know if you need more cuss words. I keep them in my back pocket.
bahahahahahaa! i just read kay's comment on here. good ones.
ReplyDeleteYes, Kris, I loved everyone of Kay's words....she is brilliant :)
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